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PDF Ú BOOK My Dark Vanessa FREE ´ INSOLPRO í ➶ My Dark Vanessa Free ➬ Author Kate Elizabeth Russell – Insolpro.co.uk Exploring the psychological dynamics of the relationship between a precocious yet naïve teenage girl and her magnetic and manipulative teacher a brilliant all consuming read that marks the expMy Dark Vanessa juxtaposes memory and trauma with the breathless excitement of a teenage girl discovering the power her own body can wield Thought provoking and impossible to put down this is a masterful portrayal of troubled adolescence and its repercussions that raises vital uestions about agency consent complicity and victimhood Written with the haunting intimacy of The Girls and the creeping intensity of Room My Dark Vanessa is an era defining novel that brilliantly captures and reflects the shifting cultural s transforming our relationships and society itse 15 starsI wish I could somehow unread this disturbing book My curiosity got the best of me after reading the countless 5 star reviews It wasn’t a storyline that appealed to me but I had to see what all the buzz was about After reading halfway through and feeling like I was missing something I continued on as my curiosity kept pushing me further and had me thinking “this must get better” Unfortunately it didn’t get better after halfway in fact it got worse I finished this novel feeling nauseated upset and frustrated Not because I was so impacted by the storyline and characters I felt nauseated upset and frustrated because I don’t understand a reason for a book like this to be written What is the author trying to convey? I am definitely missing something here The ending was a let down There was no sense of hope or purpose There was nothing to feel good about For me the story lacked sensitivity and focused on shock factor The timeline jumped around and lacked flow As much as the plot disgusted me I never felt truly connected to the characters or storyline I felt upset about the situation but no emotional connection to the characters or investment in the storyline I don’t like writing negative reviews I like to focus on the positives but there simply are no positives for me on this one I didn’t enjoy the way this story was presented Please be warned that this is a highly uncomfortable novel that you MUST be prepared forThis was a Traveling Sister read with Brenda and Mary Beth We sit at the outlier table together as all three of us felt similar Thank you to Edelweiss for the review copy

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Nt who reaches out to Vanessa and now Vanessa suddenly finds herself facing an impossible choice remain silent firm in the belief that her teenage self willingly engaged in this relationship or redefine herself and the events of her past But how can Vanessa reject her first love the man who fundamentally transformed her and has been a persistent presence in her life? Is it possible that the man she loved as a teenager and who professed to worship only her may be far different from what she has always believed?Alternating between Vanessa’s present and her past Tragic dark repulsive and infuriating this book dives deep into the complexities of abusive relationships grooming and trauma There are complicated layers that I think the author does well in putting together the timely pop culture references to show how pervasive the culture of sexualizing young girls is; the side characters that add to the complicity of fostering that culture; the way the #MeToo movement gets co opted by journalism and clickbait; how victimhood is encouraged and hailed automatically for women; the way we minimize trauma in order to cope with it; etc So many of the elements in this story come from a real place and its character study is handled realistically What encouraged me to bump my rating to 5 stars ultimately is the ending and its realism in uietly and slowly learning how to piece yourself back together

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My Dark VanessaExploring the psychological dynamics of the relationship between a precocious yet naïve teenage girl and her magnetic and manipulative teacher a brilliant all consuming read that marks the explosive debut of an extraordinary new writer2000 Bright ambitious and yearning for adulthood fifteen year old Vanessa Wye becomes entangled in an affair with Jacob Strane her magnetic and guileful forty two year old English teacher2017 Amid the rising wave of allegations against powerful men a reckoning is coming due Strane has been accused of sexual abuse by a former stude How do you best write about a fictional love affair between a teacher and a 15 year old student that is actually a predatory relationship? There are no easy answers to that uestion but that is what happens in My Dark Vanessa which alternates between 2000 and 2017 as we see how Vanessa Wye is groomed and then raped by her teacher Jacob Strane We see the repercussions she must deal with as an adult who does not allow herself to realize that the relationship was in fact abusive We see how a child is forced to carry the responsibility the adults around her should have assumed themselves The delicate and fraught nature of adolescence is captured well This book is definitely well written and the first half is well paced There is a strong sense of place— the landscape the sparseness The prose is tight and careful intimate and descriptive The protagonist Vanessa is fully realized and the author does a good job of showing Vanessa’s struggle to face what she experienced Her point of view and how it shifts over time is expertly managed and feels honest You see how pernicious this kind of abuse is because it makes Vanessa doubt herself and lose herself and see herself rather than the predator as the problem There is an interesting and relentlessly claustrophobic uality to the prose You want to escape the uiet horror of Vanessa’s story while also wanting to see how it all ends if she is going to be okay You want there to be a freeing moment of clean air without knowing if you will get itThere is some interesting cultural context developed through pop culture references Lolita and the evocation of #MeToo I suspect we are going to see uite a few novels doing this over the next several years as writers try to distill into fiction what has been happening culturally with regard to sexual violence There were ways the people in Vanessa’s life responded to her that were infuriating and inadeuate and that is all too often how these things goThe book does run too long After about 250 pages there is a thematic repetition that doesn’t serve the novel well Vanessa bites her cheek constantly It’s like girl is there anything left on the inside of your mouth??? Vanessa is fully realized but most of the other characters don’t get as much depth though they should I’m not crazy about the cover The real challenge I had with this book is that at times the abuse felt romanticized eroticized It gave me pause As the novel goes on there were so many rape scenes and I will always call it rape because that’s what it was that it just felt somewhat gratuitous And I suspect that’s kind of the point that Vanessa particularly at fifteen was torn between love and repulsion that she was shaped into someone who would see the situation as romantic while with the distance as readers we understand the situation as appalling Strane is clearly a horrible piece of shit Russell makes that crystal clear But I don’t know Does she go far enough?It all made for a very uncomfortable read and I think this should be an uncomfortable read It should make your skin crawl to bear witness to years of predation and sexual abuse I guess I don’t know how I feel about that discomfort being brought about so prettily How DO you write this kind of book and get it right? What does “right” look like? These are uestions I am going to be thinking about for uite some timeAs for the discourse around this book online debates can be aggravating Believe it or not I do read the books I talk about so I can be reasonably well informed I have actually read My Dark Vanessa Wendy Ortiz’s essay published in Gay Magazine does not accuse the author of plagiarism It notes the similarities between the experience Ortiz writes about in her memoir Excavation and the plot of this novel I suspect there are similarities anyone who has experienced this kind of predation might see because predators are everywhere But that is a sliver of what her essay is about What Ortiz is really talking about is who gets to tell what kinds of stories according to the whims of publishing’s gatekeepers It’s an essay about the frustration of encountering closed doors time and again to a story about your lived experience while those same doors open to a fictional version of a similar story and how all too often whether doors are open or closed depends on your raceethnicity It’s an entirely understandable frustration and one primarily directed at the publishing industry As a side note it is not a demand for people to disclose a history of sexual violence if they write fiction about sexual violence; anyone demanding that is engaging in batshittery How does this even need to be said?Back to My Dark Vanessa—it’s not the kind of novel that is “fun” to read This is not escape fiction It is dark and disturbing an ambitious debut novel and one that is going to spark a lot of discussion and discomfort